I'm not sure what has been causing all this frustration, doubt and depression, but I definitely know that PAIN is the biggest problem I have at the moment. Those of you who know me, will know that I deal with chronic pain on a daily basis....and I am totally sick of it.....Nowadays it seems when my pain gets to a certain level, I get rather emotional.
Yesterday, after seeing yet ANOTHER elderly couple who are fitter than me....I hit rock bottom and just let it all out. I'm more concerned now that I have upset my DS16 for allowing him to see me like I was. "I'm really sorry matey!"
I'ts been on my mind a lot lately, my pain, my mobility, my never-ending list of unfinished jobs.......
Is it going to get any better? Probably not...I see my Neurologist 10th of next month...He will probably start me on Osteoporosis meds then.....I often wonder..when the time comes, will I be able to cope with grandchildren...What if I need to mind the child so both parents can work? Will I be able to cope?
Things on my To Do List for yesterday...
5am wake up and take meds (slow release) then get ready to leave for train station at 5.15am 5.15am leave to drop DS19 off at train station 5.45am I'm back home, but can't go back to bed wide awake...so I catch up on the blogging/forum world. 6.10am Talk to hubby while he is getting ready to leave for work then back on internet 7am DS16 gets up and gets ready for school, I chat with him until I take him to school, as he has a swollen knee again from doing too much exercise) 8am I take DS16 to school then return to another list..... Washing (4 loads in a 9kg machine...OMG, I have been lazy) Meat out for tea Pick up hearing aid batteries for DS19 Pick up hearing aid batteries for Mum (different location, as DVA approved) Return light globes to Coles as they don't work ($12 refund for 2 globes, and they were marked down), Check out specials while at Coles. Do bulk shopping at Aldi's ...long overdue.
- Go to Woolworths for Cranberry tablets for mum...(looked in Coles and they don't stock them, cheaper than chemist at Woollies)...check out specials while at WW
Pick up specialist referrals from Doctor Surgery for Mum Pick up x-rays for DS16's knee...(different location than Doctor Surgery) Price timber for front garden at local saw-mill Ring gardener to get quote for front garden....(finally admitted it's too big of a job for me on my own) Pick mushrooms from under Mum's unit Water mushroom beds both morning and night as well as newly planted seedlings. Mulch one small garden bed from HUGE trailer load of mulch from the tip the day before...it costs $6 for them to dump it into your trailer, if you shovel it yourself, it's free.....($6 well spent) Bring washing in as it dries to make room for more washing...fold and put away Fall in an emotional heap and have a two hour rest in bed before doing dinner, AND decide to up meds for pain and depression Pick up DS19 from train station while cooking tea. (Hubby will stir and flip while I am away) Prepare dinner (Ham steaks, herbed spuds, fried mushrooms
Things on my To Do List for TODAY...
After having a good night's sleep without tossing about, trying to get comfy due to aches and pains.....
Here is today's list so far......I don't want to go back to where I was yesterday with all those crazy emotions,....it's not a good place to be....So I will TRY to take things down a peg or two.......but here is my list so far.......
5am wake up and take meds (slow release) then get ready to leave for train station at 5.15am 5.15am leave to drop DS19 off at train station 5.45am I'm back home, but can't go back to bed wide awake...so I catch up on the blogging/forum world. 6.10am Talk to hubby while he is getting ready to leave for work then back on internet Washing (2 loads, work clothes and bed linen...I hope) Get meat out for tea Don't forget breakfast today...made a meal from leftovers last night...Yumm Hang washing out on the line Strip beds and wash bed linen
- Tidy kitchen,
unpack dishwasher Go to newsagent to pay Paper Bill (we get Saturday's local paper for job listings and garage sales, but I haven't even been looking at the Garage Sale listings for a few months now) Go to High School and pay DS16's school fees Photocopy Hubby's birth certificate and get it stamp certified by a Justice of the Peace (Local Chemist) Take DS16 to doctor for knee damage...(Perfect timing really as there is a Teacher's Strike) Empty all rubbish bins as well as frozen rubbish...(It's bin night tonight)
- Tidy up yard a little, (surely some can go in the bin instead of paying for the tip.)
- Plant Sage & Thyme (at least these two, but I have others to do too)
Ring Limeburst for quote on ordering FingerLimes.. Drop Mum off at Physio while I run some errands and attend to this list Bring washing in as it dries, Fold and put away, also re-make beds
- Give bedrooms a quick tidy
- Give bathroom a quick tidy and wipe-over
Go to Woolworths for Cranberry tablets for mum...(looked in Coles and they don't stock them, cheaper than chemist at Woollies)...check out specials while at WW Pick up DS19 from train station while cooking tea. (Hubby will stir and flip while I am away) Prepare dinner (hopefully have it ready before picking up DS19 from train station)
|Leftovers for brekky...Yum!|